surgery.

was pretty fun.
its not my first time in there, so im just like whatever. i laid down, and was so thankful for the air conditioning they have there. its so hot outside. so i had to change into the clothes for the surgery thingy, and i had to take everything off except for my underwear, all my clothes were wet. thats how disgusting it is, its like. if i sit down on the ground, there will probably be a huge butt mark there, eww. :P

they didnt numb me enoughh. i was in painn! so they had to like put more thingy, idk what its called in english. but whatever. and it hurt sooooo muchhhh! but i got over it :P hehe. i was just talking to the nurse and the two doctors there. they were asking me about my life in america, mmm, and my family. and everythingg.

one of the doctor thought i drink a lot or something, cuz she said, only alcoholics need a lot of the numbing thingy for them to not feel the pain. something like that. idk. haha. but im a good girl (: heheh.

the doctor said im pretty, i was like. puhahah! shes so nice! and she told my mommy that im cutee. hahaha. (: and they were talking about how tanned i am. -__- the nurse was like. did you get tanned? or were you born like this, -_- haha. and i had to explain that i swim and stuff. no one in taiwan has my skin color, seriously, except for those filipino maids that works here, and everythingg. :(

hmm, hope it works this timee, it cost my mom so much moneyy.

i think,

blogspot is bad for me,
i get so depressed when i read some people's blog, well, maybe one person in particular, but, i cant help it. i guess its cuz that person is/was so important to me, so everytime he/she has a new post, i feel like, i have to read it? and then, i get depressed again. haha.

i feel bad, i know someone doesnt like me like this, someone i really care about, so i try to be happy, i try to smile. but sometimes its so hard, i have my moments, i try not to, but its a habit, a bad one i know. its not that easy to stop, but please know, im trying, okay?

hmm, but i can forget all the stuff in america when im out with my taiwan friends! :D maybe thats why, after spending three months of summer here for the past two years, in the beginning of the school year when im back to america, people always say, im the girl thats always smiling, even when im mad, i have a smile on my face, i miss being that girl,

surgery tomorrow, ehh, i dont trust those doctors anymore, but whatever. its worth trying i guess, ha, i hate how nail polish isnt allowed in the surgery room, so now i have to remove everything, even my toes! :( hehe. but ill repaint them tomorrow! :D

i dont feel like typingg.
the end.

my day

got better, wayy better.

so after being super pissed

and yeahh. i got ready, and went

out with my mommy and a family

friend to get my new camera! :) my

friend knows the owner of that

place, so its suppose to be a bit

cheaper? but. uhm, nope! not

really. the price online in taiwan

is like 10980, and they sell it for 10900 there. yeahh. 80 taiwan

money, isnt a lot -__- i could get like. a bowl of beef noodle thingy?

hahah. so, he said he will give me free memory card. and im like NO!

i dont have that much money! so hes like, oh well, you can get the

one from japan, its cheaper than the taiwan one. but you dont get

the bag. im like OKAY! the bag is freaking ugly. i dont want it

anyways. even the one hes giving me is like so much prettier!

haha. he said its 9900 -__-my moms was kinda mad. she only

gave me 9000, if i dont have enough i cant get it, then ill probably

have to get the casio one. but ive always wanted the sony one!

haha. mmm, in the end. we lied to my mom, my friend told the

owner that we will pay him back tomorrow, and we pretend that

we got it for 9500. hahaha. and yeahh. so i still owe my friend 400,

shes going to live in my house when she moves back to america -__- were

getting a house, just for her. but before that. were still going to live in our

tiny little apartment taht could barely fit me and my sister, now, my mom too.

mmm, after i got my beautiful camera. i cheered up! hahah. like a lottt. i still

have to name my camera. im still thinking! :) hehe. i know, im so weird! we

atee, and then. we went to this salon placee. i cut my bangs while my mom

permed her hair. and i called my friend. and I FINALLY WENT SHOPPING!

i told my friend to walk slowly. cuz i never been to that salon place. i might

not know how to get out and get lost or something, but it turned out, i didnt!

so i got there like sooo earllyy! i had to wait for her for like twenty minutes.

it was so hot and i bought somehting to drink, and just stood there. i got bit

by mosquitos! i was soo itchy like on my arms and feet, and yeahh.

then this blond guy came up to me and asked : "do you speak english?"

me: yeahh.

the blond dude: do you know how to get to global mall?

me: global mall? uhh. nopee!

the blond dude: i know its somewhere near banquioa, im suppose to meet

someone there but i dont know how to get there,

(im a fob and yeahh. but i only know the places i go to a lot, and i found out

today. i know shilin better than my taiwan friends! puhahaha.)

there was a map right next to me that i was staring at for the past fifteen

minutes, so i looked at the map, and i didnt see it, so i told him, to just go

there and then ask someone there! haha. but like, i found it on the map two

minutes after he left. hahaha. i felt bad, kinda? haha. hmm, and i was

wondering, if i look like i speak english?

i saw my other friend when i was waiting, he grew so muchh. hes so tall!

and last time i saw him was like april?! i wonder how can taiwan people

grow so much when they dont eat at at all -__- im amazed :P well,

he said, well hang another day.

my friend finally camee. she made a card for me! :D and she said, my

chinese got worse! :( that made me really really sadd. hahahah. and im

not good at english either. blahh! we talkedd a lott, i told her all the stuff

that made me sad/ mad that happened in america, or like stuff i found

out and yeahh. she cheered me up (: and! shopping helps a lot too! i

bought six bottles of nail polish! :D it was onsale.! :D haha! four of

them were 70% off! and the other two was like, buy four get nail

polish remover for free, so i bought two and my friend bought two,

but she gave me the nail polish remover! :D heheh. so like. total for

six nail polish was only like $10 u.s dollars. well, not evenn! hahah.

i was so happy. and i bought a shirt, but i dont like it anymore. im

going to see if i can exchange it. haha. anddd uhmmm, i atee a lott! :D

we were walkingg, and were like FOOD! then we buy it. but ten

minutes later, were like hungry againnn. so we atee a lottt! :P ohh!

and i bought a bag to put my nail polish in ! :D heheh. so now. im like.

broke again! ha. and my legs are so sore, and my feet hurt, never

wear sandals from america in taiwan! :(

i got home, and i told my mommy that im happy, first thing

she asks was: did you spend all your money?

hhaha. i told her not really. but i only have like 200 taiwan

moneyy left. haha. :( but whatever. im happy! hahha. :D

wow. this is so long, kindaa! :P if you read everything!

youre crazyy! :) the endd. that was my day. im going to

talk & try to oovoo without sound, and go to sleep! :)

right after i posted this blog and thought everything is perfect,

i lost a button on my phone. :( i hope i find it :(

wtf.

so i just woke up like twenty seven minutes ago.
well, got out of bed like seventeen minutes ago.
enough shit happened already.
i called my sister, trying to figure out my schedule.

1. english- gruenburg
2. spanish 2 h- leal
3. biology- holmes
4. alg2 trig h- matloub
5. orchestra- acciani
6. condition / swim - gonzales / aguilar

WTFF.
okay, so what happened to my bio honors?!
my sister forgot to tell my glc, so she changed it back to regular.
what happened to total body fitness? i dont know! wtf.
i hate condition, but gonzales is nice, so idk.
i heard matloub is hard? like people switched out of honors
cuz they got him.? idk. only good thing about this schedule
is yay. for fifth period orchestra. i can ditch like, anytime.

anyways. my sister said she sent the schedule to my email,
so i woke up came into my room and turned on the computer.
and. i broke my headphones again. AGAIN. and. i probably
cant oovoo now?! i dont know. -__X

my mom just cant stop yelling at me huh. and. she just has to
move back to america with me this time, how gayy.

ohh! and. it just happened that the first thing i saw when i
open my computer was your blog. yeahh. i kneww itt.
whatever. theres nothing i can do now.
fuckmylife -__X

im suppose to get my new camera today! my beautiful sony t90.
its suppose to be a good day? whatever now.
i have to go eat shower and go out, since its such a bad day.
i probably shouldnt cut my bangs today either. but the haircut
appointment thingy is today. mmm, blahhh.

first time in my life

i actually kinda miss america,
and i wanna go back.
just kinda.
and, i kinda regret coming.
but maybe ill change my mind soon,
i hope i will.

seven am

in taiwan. well, its like seven thirty six, but whatever :P
im soo boredd. & im the only one awake in the house,
i was awake since like five ? and i was like ohhhh noooo!
i forgot to call, im so sorry, i fell asleep like one hour before
im suppose to call you, but i was like dead, i didnt even know
that my alarm went off and yeahh. i hate jet lagg. :( so i finally
got to talk to you, for like four minutes? hahah. then your phone
died. i thought you hung up on purpose. :P so i didnt call back. till
like, an hour later. hahahha. sorrrrry. 30 more days! :)

i didnt see any of my friends yet! :( im suppose to spend time with
my mom when she doesnt have work, and yeahh. im such a good girl! :P
last time i saw my mommy was like, april? thats not bad compare to
other years, shes cooking like 24/7 since i got home! hhaha. guess its
a good thing, i havent ate real food like this, since may? my sister never
cooked again after she broke up with her ex. all she does is partyy -__-

my life in taiwan is still pretty boring right now, :( all i did was talk on the
phone with friends! but ill see them starting, tomorrow! :D yayy. haha.
and, im going to go shop and eat, shop and eat, hopefully pierce my cartilage?
im so dark and fat compared to everyone here, it makes me sadd :(
i hate how like. every girl here in taiwan are pretty, pale, and skinny, all
of them have nice legs! ohhh! i was looking at old pictures this morning, like,
when i was five? or something, i had skinny and pretty legs back then,
so what happened? haha, oh well :(

ehh, my moms awake now, so im suppose to "spend time" with her, so she
wont get mad at me for being infront of the computer all dayy!
mmm, byebyeee!

daaaaayninnnnnne! ;)<3

firstt! (:

yay, i finally made a blogspot!
since i promised my love, rebeccah luu. :)
taiwan is soooo hottt & humid.
its so disgusting. my glasses fogged up when
the door opened on the subway! -__- it was so
crowded too! everyone was sticky and yeahh!
im too lazy to type right now, so byeee!

ohhhh &&& i miss you, :(