for my lover,

rebeccah luu! :D hahah.
yeah, i didnt post anything for a while, i really dont know what to type, a lot of stuff happens everyday, ups & downs. im starting to keep more and more thoughs to myself, instead of telling anyone, cuz i dont even know who to tell, or sometimes, i just dont know how to say it.
sometimes, i feel like shit for no reason, or i get paranoid really easily, and, i do stuff i shouldnt do. i hate it when that happens, but i cant really do anything. its not that easy to just relax or whatever.
school is terrible, home is even worse, its been a month and three days since i got back from taiwan, a month and three days living with my mother in america, its not something im used to, nor is it something i like. gah. but another three years.
i hope i get to go somewhere far far away for college!
i try to be happy, i try really hard, but happiness seems to never last too long before something comes and brings you down.

im,

so tired of everythingg,


i guess i kinda miss how things use to be.
but, i dont knowww.

i need,

a box that can fit a five six ish, dont know how many pounds woman in there. i needa ship my mom back to taiwan -____- thanks for the idea philip! my sister and i agreed! haha. its not fair how you left me for three years, my sister for like what, twelve years? and now all of a sudden, youre coming back, and taking away our rights and you need to get use to our lifestlye.

anywayss. taking a break form homework! why do i have so much homework everyday? i miss how last year, i get home at two, go to sleep and just do nothing till swim. i miss finishing all my homework in class, which i barely had any. hahah.

no matter how bad things get, i try to think of the good side. when you lose something, you'll gain something too, haha. im happy i still have you guys (; ohh! and today, when someone told me the "have you ever thought that they are just jealous?" reminded me of amy chen! <3 hahah. i miss youuu! anyways, i like that sentence, haha. never thought of it like that before, but its quite interesting. (:

i lovee my bio class, haha. the freshmen in there are so interesting! dont really like this school year, yet, but im trying my best!

the end for now! back to homework! 090309