tumblr now.

http://heyyykayyy.tumblr.com/

idk,

what to say anymore, or what i want anymore, so much in my mind, but i dont even know what. im feeling so depressed. it sucks.

i'm such a fool,

knew perhaps ill regret it, but idk.

& you guys, thought for once, its different, i have people to depend on, to have fun with, but i guess you guys have more fun without me, ask me like two hours later, whatever, ill get over it.

why do i even try to fight back, you guys will never be staisfied with me, just wait another two and a half years.

everyones telling me to just yeah, but somethings pulling me back. idk.

it sucks that my lowest grade is conditioning -__- cuz i cant run! wow. -__-

i hate facebook. see stuff that just makes everything worse..

fml, they wont even let me go to the gym when its the only place i can go when i wanna go out -_- cuz its rainning, i suck at driving in the rain... now im stuck at home again. why is there traffic from big bear? :( ugh.

the end. 011710

it really hurts,

when you know someone you love judge you over something you did, and changed the way they look at you. even if its only sometimes, or whatever, but it still hurts, a lot actually, out of everyone, the one that you thought would be there for you the most, the one that wouldn't judge you cuz they know you, maybe love you, just what, tell you they think of you differently too. even they got over it, but when they think about it, they still think you're different and changed for the worse. yeah,its stupid, but it hurts too. whatever. i don't know what to say anymore.


you, thanks for stepping back in my life, i don't know how and when did this happen, but you came back, and helped me through the times i needed someone the most, you know me too well to let me lie to you and say i'm fine. you're a great friend.


phone died, don't bother charging it, it just makes me cry anyways. sorry if i don't text back.