i think,

blogspot is bad for me,
i get so depressed when i read some people's blog, well, maybe one person in particular, but, i cant help it. i guess its cuz that person is/was so important to me, so everytime he/she has a new post, i feel like, i have to read it? and then, i get depressed again. haha.

i feel bad, i know someone doesnt like me like this, someone i really care about, so i try to be happy, i try to smile. but sometimes its so hard, i have my moments, i try not to, but its a habit, a bad one i know. its not that easy to stop, but please know, im trying, okay?

hmm, but i can forget all the stuff in america when im out with my taiwan friends! :D maybe thats why, after spending three months of summer here for the past two years, in the beginning of the school year when im back to america, people always say, im the girl thats always smiling, even when im mad, i have a smile on my face, i miss being that girl,

surgery tomorrow, ehh, i dont trust those doctors anymore, but whatever. its worth trying i guess, ha, i hate how nail polish isnt allowed in the surgery room, so now i have to remove everything, even my toes! :( hehe. but ill repaint them tomorrow! :D

i dont feel like typingg.
the end.